I'm Black And Can't Dance

  I cannot dance, and I am black! I am black and cannot dance. I realized this phenomenon when I was much younger. After watching Beyonce's "Crazy In Love" music video I tried very much so to do the "Uh Oh" dance. While Beyonce and her dancer's looked like fierce energizer bunnies, I looked like I was trying to fight off a seizure. Fast forward to my eighth grade farewell dance and  I, along with another person of color who could not dance, leaned back against the wall while I watched my peers grinding and freaking on each other ( yeah the supervisors did not do their job). While taking breaks from watching what looked like a music video on 106& Park, I ate some cotton candy, some  ice cones chatted with some friends  but the distraction was still lingering.

   Why can't I just dance? This eighth grade farewell dance is a once in a lifetime opportunity to dance and have fun with my eighth grade friends . I felt alone, shy and awkward. Suddenly, I threw away my ice cone ( in a recyclable trash can), and marched right onto the dance floor. There was just a crowd of overly hype, sweaty kids and I made my way through them. I stopped and told myself that I will just dance for ten seconds just to say that I actually danced at my eighth grade farewell dance. So I did it, I danced like a beheaded chicken, and once the ten seconds was over I looked up to see if anyone was watching. I looked at one side of the room and mostly people were still dancing and grinding on each other *phew*! I look at the other side of the room and there was this one girl just staring at me, and smiling mischievously like"haha girl! I saw that!"

  Now in present time I still can't dance, I've gotten a little better, but I prefer to dance when I'm in my room by myself. However, if I get invited to a club I'm going to dance even if I look stupid. Why? Because dancing is just about feeling the music and having fun. You don't have to be a trained dancer or even have some moves to dance. Just dance to the beat as they say! In retrospect if you're dancing in public you're probably not the only one who can't dance, and most people aren't paying attention to you dancing like that, they're too busy having fun. So, there is nothing wrong with not knowing how to dance, even if your black. But if it still bothers you, you can always take classes. So have a  Happy National Dance Day to all my awkward dancers!

A Little Inspiration: Just Do You!

     “I want to do it all!” I declare to myself while taking a dump in the toilet (sorry, was that too much for you?) I want to blog, I want to vlog, I want to make films, I want to… I want to learn computer coding? Yes, computer coding! You see I have a lot of plans for myself, it may look like I am a confused twenty-something who doesn’t know what she wants but what’s wrong with that? Tyler Perry once said, “Put all of your energy into watering one area. If you spread the water across many, many seeds you don’t have as much water for one seed. So focus on one thing, make it your priority and stick with it no matter what.” Well then why do people garden, Perry? Why have one beautiful flower when you can have a garden full of azaleas, some petunias, daisies, hell, throw some basil in there as well. The more I do what I want and learn different tasks, the more I learn about myself and abilities. 

    You see, I’ve always had a problem picking just one thing to do. I mean, choosing just one major in college for example. If I had more time  I would have double-majored, can you triple-major? I fall in love with anything that fuels my soul. Anything that fizzles out my procrastination and self-doubt, and renews that spark for life is what I crave for.

   

     I realize that wanting to do many things at once can becomes daunting. However, humans are multi-faceted, so it makes sense that most would have many different passions in life. If you are a lawyer, but you want to create a fashion blog then why not have a stab at it? A screenwriter, who wants to create a game app? Okay, then! Take classes, go back to school, reach out to experts. Do whatever it takes.

   

   Only problem is what happens when the spark seems to dim? When it seems that your passion becomes work, I mean work that you have been too scared to look in the eyes. What happens when your supervisor makes fun of your soft-spoken voice in front of your coworkers? Does that mean you should reconsider making YouTube videos? Or when that big creative script idea you need to become a big hit hasn’t come through yet? Or when you don’t seem to have a lot of followers on a blog you’ve been working on for years? What happens then? Do you stop? Hell no! Wake up! Hard work  just doesn’t happen the old Disney Cinderella way that most of us were taught, but that’s okay because it’s much more fun that way.

  

  My dream is to inspire the self-doubters, the naysayers that dreams do come true. I want people to look at me and say, “If this ordinary girl can do it, so can I.” So what if you have a million ideas, and no one believes in you. At least you believe, and that’s all you need to make your first step. Now, I’m just getting started in this process but when I’m done I’ll let you know how it all turned out.

Kemi Talks

 

   Hello everyone out  there! I decided to make YouTube videos! I've always admired YouTube personalities and content creators. In the past, I would make videos but then take them down. But here I am, embracing myself to everyone in a different format! This video required so much editing, It's the hardest video I've worked on, so give a sister some love! Lol! Seriously though!

  Anyway, I am looking to make weekly videos and see how this YouTube thing goes. Thanks for reading, now watch my video!