Pink Hair!

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   I am thinking of dying my hair pink, a purplish pink.I have been transitioning for 15 months now, and if I were to big chop my hair it will be dyed pink. I was thinking about it once I stepped into the steamy shower this morning, while droplets of water were beating my skin.

    I instantly thought of myself dancing in one of those edgy commercials where the product is  skinny jeans, and I am surrounding by tall, gorgeous people dancing to rock music. My hair sways to the left than to the right. My painted lips snarling here and there, and I just don't care anymore. No more worrying about what others think of me, or slaving to others expectations.
 
      It's just me and my pink hair, studded stilettos,punk shades and my punk attitude. People wouldn't know what to do with me anymore, they'd think I lost my marbles. In response I would get a septic nose ring and tattoo my knuckles.

     Two years ago, I craved for red hair a year afterwards it was blonde. The most I've ever done to my hair was have a burgundy gloss. Inside my habitual crevice, my hair was the same black color since birth, but out into the sunlight  my hair grew into a red aura.

    When I hopped outside of the shower and changed into my jeans and t-shirt, I felt uncomfortable. I sat in my chair unsure what my next move would be. My thoughts changing as fast as a nerve synapse.  Staring at my laptop, I wondered if this draining sensation would  scratch away if I finally did what I wanted to for a change.

From Vacay to School Days

     Hey everyone, I haven't posted in a long time! As most might know school season has started! Yay? As posted, I recently transferred  schools hours away from my home. I moved into my new apartment where I have two roommates who are both freshman.  At first it was a good bonding experience when they invited me to dance the night away, but later on their niceness was misunderstood and now  things are quite awkward around here.

      As for school, my classes are okay so far but I already have exams in two weeks! I hope I can excel in them, my biopsychology and statistic courses I will need to work hard on, but yeah it's alot different from a local college that's for sure.

    However, I am doing something I thought I would have a hard time doing--making friends. I am introverted as it has been established, but I also have a sprinkle of shyness mixed in me. It's hard sometimes especially being a transfer student where everyone in  your year has already created friendships. My advice although, it seems cliche, is to talk to people. Have a question?  Ask that person seated next to you. Most likely they won't ignore you, and then you can start asking them what their major is, their year, talk about events, ect. This information won't guarantee a connection but at least you'll start somewhere.

   I did this in my biopsychology class and now I have made a friend, and that friend has introduced me to her friends--sooner or later I've gotten  invited to parties and outings.  While this is has been a blessing as I have prayed on it before, be careful on what you wished for. Going out and having fun is amaze balls, but in college there needs to be a balance between work and play.

  For example, because there isn't homework assigned (except for my Statisitics class) I haven't been studying as much for my classes, and now I have exams in two weeks. So don't be afraid to decline an invitation, for those who are in college.   Speaking of partying, here is a few pictures and videos of my first three weeks here at my new school.

It's crowded up in here!

Group picture after a Hispanic Student Association Event!

Rice and beans mmmm!

Salsa night!

Me after church!

Labor day outing at the Springs!

My first time here!

 

 

                               The Sabor Latino Dance Team performed at the HSA event! Fiiire!


SO yeah that is the summary of my few weeks being here! College can be fun, and not all about cramming for exams! Right? Isn't that what life should be about?  Anyway, I'll be posting more about events going around while I'm here in college. Until then, see you later! 

New School, New You?

                                           

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    Every year as summer goes back into hibernation and Fall peaks out from under its covers, I dream that things will change for the better. However that feeling of expectation is similar to the dreadful sensation of making a New Year resolution. I shout to the universe my requests of having  more friends, more social outings, dates, ect. Instead, I find myself repeating the same year (insert emoticon).

      I am going to a new school, a huge new school and I am terrified. Terrified of failing to the point that I might have panic attacks. Usually at this point of time, I would be meticulously making lists of things to buy, making up a skin care routine, and practicing my conversation skills in front of the mirror. This time around, however, I figure what's the point? Those things don't change who I am, and no matter how old I get, or where I live. I will continuously be surrounded by the same life situations.

                                                         

It's that time of the year, again...

      It's just life. I think what I had been doing wrong this entire time was expecting for my surroundings to change, new school, new change. But that's not how it works. The world isn't perfect, no matter how much of a good person I think I am. Life has it's setbacks, I just have to put my metal armor on and deal with it. It comes with growing up I guess, and now that I've realized it maybe I can start to change.

    Maybe, with less expectations I won't get depressed? No, I just can't do that. I am a dreamer, there's not a second that goes by where I don't close my eyes and fantasize a paradise surrounded by a pink fuzzy haze . I cannot let Life tell me what to do, instead I must tell Life what it will do. And to show Life that I am being serious, I will compile a list of things to remind my self throughout the year.


17 Things to Remind Myself Throughout the Year! 

• Tell yourself affirmative words.
• Smile, even when you don't want to.
• Make your own crowd, don't follow.
• Talk to more people, humans aren't as scary as they seem.
• Speak up more, you have interesting things to say.
• Ask for help! 
• Write more, it's therapeutic. 
• Join lots of clubs and activities to keep yourself from drowning in school work.
• Don't beat yourself up too much.
• Read a lot more self-help books. 
• Don't compare yourself to anyone.
• Realize you are more than your mistakes, continue to count your blessings!
• Hang out with people who respect you.
• Continue to build up your strengths.
• Don't just wallow in bed (unless reading a good book) do something you love.
• Take a break, and take care of your health.
• Keep blogging! 

   Here is my list of seventeen things to remind myself throughout the year. Basically I am changing my outtake and not necessarily all of the situations this year...we'll see how that goes.  Any suggestions? They're welcomed! 

Transitioning: Wash day!!

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     So I have been transitioning my hair from relaxed to natural for  thirteen months! Yeah! Whoo hoo!  It hasn't been easy at all. I laughed, I cried, I laughed some more, but here I am now! What has changed the most (besides my hair texture) is my hair routine. For the past year I have been changing up my hair routine, to see what works best , and the routine I currently have makes my hair so soft!!

    So this is my hair before I wash it. It was an old braid out that's dirty and dry.

I decided to deep condition my hair before I wash it, which is something i have never really done before. I lightly damped my hair and detangled it thoroughly, then I put my hair into four braids while I condition them. 

Putting my dry hair into four parts.

 

Here's my hair wet, you can see the stringy ends attached. And my hair is like a reddish brown due to the henna.

      

                                                 
                                                                           

              I used the Shea Moisture' s Deep Treatment Mask and I added some Jamaican castor oil I got from a Caribbean market to it.  I think I got ripped off, because the bottle is the size of my palm and it costs $ 3.99!  Anyway, since it was late at night and I was tired, I decided to deep condition over night. However, I wouldn't do nightly deep conditions in the future because it can weaken the hair and cause it to break easily. 

    Next, I woke up the next morning, and I washed out my hair still in the four braids (but made it looser) with Kera Pro Restorative shampoo. It has sulfates, so choose another Shampoo that is sulfate free like Tresemee! 

 

       I then dry my hair with an old t-shirt and let it air dry. Usually I plan my wash days on days I have nowhere to  go, therefore I can just read and wait until my hair is  dry and ready to style. To stretch it I will moisturise with a leave-in conditioner and then braid my hair.  

   The number of braids depends on what I feel like, whether it's four braids, sixteen braids, cornrows, whatever! Then I will put some rollers at the end of my hair because I am transitioning, and keep it in for six hours or until the next morning to reveal the pleasant surprise my hair has undertaken.

So here are the (usual) results. And I love it, because it's fun, flirty, and soft to the touch.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

    

Update!

Hey guys! I haven't posted in such a long time. That's because I was too caught up in my solo trip to Mexico. I will be posting soon, and I am planning on making a video of my six day journey in Puerto Vallarta. Stay tuned! :)

Unfriending Facebook Friends

   I have more Facebook friends than I actually have in real life. After the Trayvon verdict was read I cried. I was surprised that I cried, because I had a feeling the verdict would read "not guilty" with how the case was poorly presented. But the emotions were too strong to hold inside.Therefore, I decided to take action by signing the NAACP petition and sharing it on Facebook for those to read and sign as well.

   Well, I couldn't help but to scroll down and see what everybody's  reaction was  to the verdict. Well I scrolled down to a girl  I used to hang out with in high school, who I remember as kind of a funny person. She posted #teamzimmerman on her timeline! She even got 28 likes for it, which is saddening. I was flabbergasted that someone would post such an insensitive thing. I know she is white but that doesn't mean you have the incapability to not post such a horrendous thing even if you believe it!  Then and there I just wanted to delete my facebook, because she wasn't the only one who thought Zimmerman had the right to kill an unarmed teenage boy. Instead I commented on her post to tell her why there was no justice in this trial, but I learned a valuablue lesson: Don't argue with fools!

 Here are the captions of the mess: The girl is in black everyone else is in red. 

                                        

My last comment (The rest of it said God Bless you)! 

   She proceeded to say that her niece is half black causing her niece to be considered only black, and that same equation applies to Zimmerman thanks to the one drop rule used in slavery . Thankfully, other Hispanics posted that Latinos can be racist to black people making it definitely a race issue, but she continued on with her ignorance, and I realised that this argument was pointless. Consequently, I  unfriended her and anyone else that had agreed with her. It was hard knowing that someone I had joked, hung around, and had a sleepover with was this person, but I thank God I know now so I can cut her out.

   We tend to keep Facebook friends even though we haven't talked to them in ages I guess to compete with who's more popular. That's why I am seriously thinking of just deleting it. I mean maybe I'll need it for networking, but for what else? I don't really care about where they're vacationing at, or who broke up with who? I'm not in high school anymore.

How To Relieve Stress!

   Stress is that pounding indicator, that comes knocking through your door waiting for you when you are just about to reach the peak of happiness. So why not pour out the stress  from our bodies, so we can paint a better picture of  our goals and life plans. Here I compiled a list that helps me when I am stressed, and if you haven't, should try as well.

                                                 

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1. Meditate

     I remember at sixteen-years-old first hearing about meditation and how it can relieve stress, pain and anxiety. I went inside my room, shut the door, turned off the television, silenced my phone, sat on the floor with my legs crossed, closed my eyes and then deeply inhaled and exhaled. I started chanting "Om" breiflly before my sister, talking profusely on the phone next door, interrupted me.

     My eyes went wide open and I stormed into my sister's room. I yelled, "I told you I was going to meditate, you're being too loud!" My sister apologized sarcastically, and I went back into my room to start  meditating again. Then the smoke alarm started to chirp loudly as a result of the batteries needing to be changed! I was frustrated, but continued to close my eyes and chant "Om" but it didnt last long. I got hungry at the thought  of  tender cheeseburgers awaiting me, and decided that five seconds was enough!

    Now after reading Iyanla Vanzant's book, One Day My Soul Opened Up, I realized that meditating isn't about being surrounded by the peaceful sounds of the ocean waves on the beach (although it would be ideal). It's about blocking the outside noise and stress and becoming center with the universe! Now I can meditate with the fan blaring and the smoke alarm chirping (I really need to change those batteries), and if I can do that I can relieve any stress I'm having.

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2. Pray

    Like most people that are forgotten to be acknowledged,  I over think and it can effect with the tasks I need to do and my emotions!  I remember one time I was visiting my older cousin in Philadelphia, and I told her I was stressed out about going to college and finances. She told me to just pray, and that it works for her all the time. My cousin is pretty smart, graduating from Oxford University, but I kind of questioned her logic here. It just seemed too simple--prayer. However, it's not just clasping your hands together and closing your eyes and saying ,"Hello there God!" It's actually believing and having faith that things will come into fruition. That whatever you are going through shall pass!

       I sound corny and all, but the sense of believing that situations will turn out okay makes you a more positive human being. Soon you will start attracting positive events and people. God listens to us even when it feels like He doesn't sometimes, just ask and you shall receive. If it wasn't for prayer I wouldn't have been ale to get out of some circumstances in the past.

                                                                       

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3. Joy

     When I ask people what they want most out of life, the answer is usually happiness. I don't know anyone that doesn't want to be happy. While happiness is great and all,  it usually is an emotion dependent on a tangible thing. Sometimes we can be happy or we can get mad and sad, why is that? Because happiness is a reaction to something. A reaction to getting a new car, a great job, friends, a relationship, clothes, and multitudes of other things. But what happens when we lose all those things, should we give up on life? No!

       Joy, is a feeling inside of you that never goes away. Regardless of what is stressing you out, you need to  have joyful, by being grateful of what you do have for now. Because it encourages you to know that things will turn out alright. Unlike happiness, joy is intangible and isn't the result of the good days or even the bad days, but a result of good things to come.

                                             

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4. Do Nothing!

    Ugh!!! I am stressed beyond belief I just feel like pulling the hairs out of my scalp! Really, you are? Well than sit down on that chair and just relaxed. Much like meditating doing nothing can really help me out when I am stressed. Having an illness like sickle cell anemia, has helped me to realize that I need to take the time out of the day and just relax my body. In this world, people can over work themselves and that can lead to stress. Before you know it you've ended up in a hospital bed with IV fluids running through your veins.

      Now if you are those perfectionists who laugh at the thought of sleep, you can still do nothing for at least ten minutes! Do your nails, eat a tub of organic ice cream, browse online, take a nice walk, how about a nap? When you take the time to give your body and mind a rest you will be more productive during the day and can actually think clearer.


      I stopped at four, because like I just advised you guys I am going to rest my mind a little lol. Of course, I will be back to add more to this list, but until then Om Namah Shivayah to you all!

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