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Every year as summer goes back into hibernation and Fall peaks out from under its covers, I dream that things will change for the better. However that feeling of expectation is similar to the dreadful sensation of making a New Year resolution. I shout to the universe my requests of having more friends, more social outings, dates, ect. Instead, I find myself repeating the same year (insert emoticon).
I am going to a new school, a huge new school and I am terrified. Terrified of failing to the point that I might have panic attacks. Usually at this point of time, I would be meticulously making lists of things to buy, making up a skin care routine, and practicing my conversation skills in front of the mirror. This time around, however, I figure what's the point? Those things don't change who I am, and no matter how old I get, or where I live. I will continuously be surrounded by the same life situations.
It's that time of the year, again... |
It's just life. I think what I had been doing wrong this entire time was expecting for my surroundings to change, new school, new change. But that's not how it works. The world isn't perfect, no matter how much of a good person I think I am. Life has it's setbacks, I just have to put my metal armor on and deal with it. It comes with growing up I guess, and now that I've realized it maybe I can start to change.
Maybe, with less expectations I won't get depressed? No, I just can't do that. I am a dreamer, there's not a second that goes by where I don't close my eyes and fantasize a paradise surrounded by a pink fuzzy haze . I cannot let Life tell me what to do, instead I must tell Life what it will do. And to show Life that I am being serious, I will compile a list of things to remind my self throughout the year.
17 Things to Remind Myself Throughout the Year!
- Tell yourself affirmative words.
- Smile, even when you don't want to.
- Make your own crowd, don't follow.
- Talk to more people, humans aren't as scary as they seem.
- Speak up more, you have interesting things to say.
- Ask for help!
- Write more, it's therapeutic.
- Join lots of clubs and activities to keep yourself from drowning in school work.
- Don't beat yourself up too much.
- Read a lot more self-help books.
- Don't compare yourself to anyone.
- Realize you are more than your mistakes, continue to count your blessings!
- Hang out with people who respect you.
- Continue to build up your strengths.
- Don't just wallow in bed (unless reading a good book) do something you love.
- Take a break, and take care of your health.
- Keep blogging!