Speak Up!

           
    I am quiet. So quiet that apparently others don't realize when I am speaking. I am better at expressing myself in words, because I am in fact very shy. Also when I do try to voice out my opinions I notice people leaning in with their ears, and as soon as I let out my first word a sharp interruption occurs. "Can you speak up?" "Woah! Your voice is low!" "Not trying to be mean but..." "I still can't hear you!" Now to most people the simple solution to this problem is to speak up, but ever since I was in elementary school, I have found that to not be so simple. I don't want to feel like I am yelling at the top of my lungs, but I also do not want to be so quiet that only a dog can hear me.

    Thanks to the internet, you can find and learn many things regardless if it is successful or not. I have typed in how to be speak louder to cure my soft-spoken voice, and there are good tips. I learned to speak from my diaphragm and to open my mouth like I am trying to eat an apple whole when speaking. However, these tips do not magically cure my soft voice, in fact I think it is hereditary, for my mother also has a soft-spoken voice.

     Anyway, why should I care if my voice is too soft? Who cares, right? Well, I do because it is affecting my life. I got denied a fast-food job because of it, they said that I had a great personality and  all but the golden voice that would ensure  I can satisfy all the customers with their greasy food orders . It has also affected my social life, because I am afraid that if I start speaking to someone that my voice would be so low that person will unintentionally ignore me. I am not imagining it or being dramatic, because it has happened before and it is incredibly embarrassing.
 
           That is why I need to help myself, and I know I can do it. I don't spend the day taking to most people, but I do want to. I also know I can be loud I have gotten angry, and have yelled several times during my teenage angst. So now that the new year is coming, and I will be starting a new semester of college here's my solution: think of what makes me angry so I can go out in full rage and it will instantly allow me to speak louder. On a serious note, the real solution is to just keep doing not "trying" to speak louder. This post went on longer than I wanted, but I have been struggling with this for a long time and I really just want to stop sounding like a baby and instead sound like a grown woman.

  I wonder if any one else feels this way.